Lilyisthatyou (Lily Davies) puts it all on the line with her distinct, hypnotic vocals underpinned by equally transfixing production. Lilyisthatyou begins the song by admitting she has a tendency to “keep my vices on rotation.” However, after failing to find answers in excess and “chasing meaning, chasing feeling” in all the wrong places, she has concocted a new mantra: “Everything in moderation.”
“I feel a responsibility to be honest with my fan base about my own struggles with substance abuse,” Lilyisthatyou says of the track’s inspiration. “Constantly high, losing touch with reality, losing friendships, jobs, and losing my sense of self, I went into psychotherapy for addiction.” Happily, she is in recovery. “I have come so far and I am still healing but I am so proud to say I no longer feel a dependency on any substance.”
She adds, “I don’t condone substance use, nor do I encourage isolating yourself and never going out. In my experience, I have had the most fun as I’ve learned to balance both.” In the accompanying visual, Lily showcases her duality—the “too good” and “downright dirty” versions of herself.
“They look into each other’s worlds with jealousy, but both seem to deteriorate in their decisions,” Lilyisthatyou says of the video. “Neither the good nor the bad versions of myself are sustainable ways to be human. It is the balance of these values that makes me feel best.”